Bitching.
This weekend is probably my last big drug binge for a while. Considering I’m going to candy flip (Molly and LSD, should be a fun time), plus smoke a shitton of weed, I think my body deserves a break.
I just hope my rolling and tripping ass says no to the Ketamine that’s going to be at the party. I’ve heard too many horror stories about K-holes for me to be comfortable with putting myself in that mindset while on other drugs, or just in general. I always say I’ll try anything once, so I’ll probably eventually give K a shot, but I don’t feel ready yet, and I have no desire to do so.
I’ll probably keep smoking the herb until I have to quit at the end of February, but I think limiting my exposure to other drugs (except the occasional psychedelic, maybe, if I get good grades) could be healthy. This includes booze, my worst decisions are made when I’m drunk. I truly enjoy rolling, and also being a nice drunk, but these drugs are at minimum not great for my body, and I really have no excuse to use them when I can get just as much enjoyment from an eighth of weed or a tab or two of acid.
Drugs are fun and interesting, they’re a great way to connect with people and they bring excitement to boring activities. However, I don’t want to be the “druggie kid.” I used to be involved in so many things, and while it’s understandable that I grew away from drama club and such as I matured, I still miss the people I would meet. Honestly, I should try and date again, it’ll give me something to do other than smoke pot and read books, but I’m still not sure monogamy is my thing, and I don’t want to test that with someone I care about.
Meh, I should go to bed, I have class tomorrow. Goodnight.
